究竟... 廿二號會唔會有什麼大小異事發生呢?
唉, 我真係好期待.
菲, 還記得我嗎...
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
近來瘋瘋癲.
近排我發覺我自己的確係瘋瘋癲癲,
唔洗等到別人笑我啦..
鬼咩, 日夜顛倒, 失暈落魄, 做賊咁...
好似前日咁, 溫完書三個白痴就走左去睇戲咁...
頂...
又幾唔錯既..
唔太多人睇, 可能因為夜場既關係罷..
別人真的笑我們太瘋癲...
係既, 係既,
但我唔想食McNuggets 食到死哂咁...
寶撚返尼又話搵我上大帽山喎...
癲架...
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菲比呀菲比...
唔洗等到別人笑我啦..
鬼咩, 日夜顛倒, 失暈落魄, 做賊咁...
好似前日咁, 溫完書三個白痴就走左去睇戲咁...
頂...
又幾唔錯既..
唔太多人睇, 可能因為夜場既關係罷..
別人真的笑我們太瘋癲...
係既, 係既,
但我唔想食McNuggets 食到死哂咁...
寶撚返尼又話搵我上大帽山喎...
癲架...
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菲比呀菲比...
Monday, March 01, 2010
遊戲
2010年了, 我還在做什麼? 挨了十九個年頭, 還是一事無成, 好食懶飛 。
上年我與自己說, 為了給將來另一半與子女幸福, 及父母清福安享晚年, 妹妹生活無休, 我一定要用餘下一生拼搏努力, 去完成大學畢業, 搏命搵錢, 令生活安定平穩。
2010年了, 一年這樣子又飄過了, 但今年我有至少達成十份之一的目標嗎? 數數手指, 屈指又一算, 卻還是原地踏步, 唏唏噓噓的那樣過了。
08年會考嚴重食蛋後, 把心一橫決定到外國另起爐灶, 東山再起。09年到了澳洲, 還是懶洋洋的, 日上三竿已是等閒之事, 測驗又拉車邊過, 考試又只懂靠運氣。我問我自己, 我還要玩到幾時。
2010年, 已走了六份之一, 意味著, 我快要踏入十九歲了。在這十八歲的一年當中, 我自問自己真的一小拙建樹也沒有, 回憶錄裡真的好像沒有 零九 這二字出現過。
不說成就, 說說愛情吧。
噢十九年來也沒有拍過拖, 連喜歡的女孩也只得一個, 你不取笑我我也不相信吧。
既然菲比選擇了不選擇我, 我也無話不說。要打要怨的, 只好怨我自己一人。
十九年了, 還是這樣子, 究竟我還要玩到幾時。
遊戲這東西, 真的並不適合我這種跟本沒有本錢的人所玩的。
.
菲, 妳究竟想點。
上年我與自己說, 為了給將來另一半與子女幸福, 及父母清福安享晚年, 妹妹生活無休, 我一定要用餘下一生拼搏努力, 去完成大學畢業, 搏命搵錢, 令生活安定平穩。
2010年了, 一年這樣子又飄過了, 但今年我有至少達成十份之一的目標嗎? 數數手指, 屈指又一算, 卻還是原地踏步, 唏唏噓噓的那樣過了。
08年會考嚴重食蛋後, 把心一橫決定到外國另起爐灶, 東山再起。09年到了澳洲, 還是懶洋洋的, 日上三竿已是等閒之事, 測驗又拉車邊過, 考試又只懂靠運氣。我問我自己, 我還要玩到幾時。
2010年, 已走了六份之一, 意味著, 我快要踏入十九歲了。在這十八歲的一年當中, 我自問自己真的一小拙建樹也沒有, 回憶錄裡真的好像沒有 零九 這二字出現過。
不說成就, 說說愛情吧。
噢十九年來也沒有拍過拖, 連喜歡的女孩也只得一個, 你不取笑我我也不相信吧。
既然菲比選擇了不選擇我, 我也無話不說。要打要怨的, 只好怨我自己一人。
十九年了, 還是這樣子, 究竟我還要玩到幾時。
遊戲這東西, 真的並不適合我這種跟本沒有本錢的人所玩的。
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菲, 妳究竟想點。
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Wrong.
What did I do wrong?
You or academic?
Why are you being like this again.
Guessing is not my specialty.
And you know it's so damn difficult to guess what it is.
You or academic?
Why are you being like this again.
Guessing is not my specialty.
And you know it's so damn difficult to guess what it is.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
看妳了.
深夜一點一. 夜幕低垂.
What am I doing here? What am I doing next to my window. What am I doing...
上星期三, 我寄左盒野比妳, 我估大概尼幾日會收到了.
說真的, 我覺得我已經做到出哂面, 已經好過份, 好大機會已經令妳討厭我.
我猜對嗎?
你問我知不知我自己在做什麼.
嗯, 問得好, 因為妳, 我真的不知自己在做什麼.
是我太喜歡妳? 是嗎? 我連自己都不知, 我是恨妳, 還是愛妳.
我好辛苦, 我不知道.
每日忍住忍住真係好痛苦, 好赤心.
菲, 為什麼?
算吧.
一開始搵返妳已經陷入一個無止境的迷宮,
是對與錯, 已經不重要.
友人們一致認為, 妳不值得我做咁多野, 不值得我咁樣去對妳.
友人們一致認為, 妳是不適合我, 妳是不會喜歡我.
開初, 我覺得我一定可以感動到妳, 一定令妳對我另眼相看.
但直到現在, 我漸漸明白我自己的能力原來遠遠不遜自己預期,
跟本就係痴人說夢, 自作多情.
對, 友人們分析得對, 很對.
但, 我真的要放棄妳, 真的要"搵個第二個"?
我不知, 我沒法得知.
所以, 我想,
答案, 就要看妳的造化了, 菲.
今天妳Facebook問我的問題, 恕我真的不知妳在問什麼.
而這段日子, 我不會再煩擾妳的了, 妳放心.
What am I doing here? What am I doing next to my window. What am I doing...
上星期三, 我寄左盒野比妳, 我估大概尼幾日會收到了.
說真的, 我覺得我已經做到出哂面, 已經好過份, 好大機會已經令妳討厭我.
我猜對嗎?
你問我知不知我自己在做什麼.
嗯, 問得好, 因為妳, 我真的不知自己在做什麼.
是我太喜歡妳? 是嗎? 我連自己都不知, 我是恨妳, 還是愛妳.
我好辛苦, 我不知道.
每日忍住忍住真係好痛苦, 好赤心.
菲, 為什麼?
算吧.
一開始搵返妳已經陷入一個無止境的迷宮,
是對與錯, 已經不重要.
友人們一致認為, 妳不值得我做咁多野, 不值得我咁樣去對妳.
友人們一致認為, 妳是不適合我, 妳是不會喜歡我.
開初, 我覺得我一定可以感動到妳, 一定令妳對我另眼相看.
但直到現在, 我漸漸明白我自己的能力原來遠遠不遜自己預期,
跟本就係痴人說夢, 自作多情.
對, 友人們分析得對, 很對.
但, 我真的要放棄妳, 真的要"搵個第二個"?
我不知, 我沒法得知.
所以, 我想,
答案, 就要看妳的造化了, 菲.
今天妳Facebook問我的問題, 恕我真的不知妳在問什麼.
而這段日子, 我不會再煩擾妳的了, 妳放心.
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Chance.
菲, 回想起過往, 我曾經亂叫過妳做老婆, 令妳覺得十分無奈, 真的覺得自己又白痴又幼稚, 完全沒有顧及妳的感受. 回到近期, 我竟然又犯下這個鑄天大錯, 要求妳留下"女朋友"三個字的署名, 又再一次沒有把妳的感受抹掉了. 我知道自己真的太過份, 既自私, 亦完全沒有顧及妳的感受, 以往還把妳罵到一面屁, 真的覺得那時我是否男人來的. 現在的我, 真的十分自責, 十分內疚. 如果當年我不是那樣不思長進, 我看妳根本就不需要流下那麼多的眼淚, 也不用受盡我給妳的委屈. 妳說得對, 妳不提, 不代表妳已經忘記過往發生了什麼事.
上次與妳MSN, 妳說道, 因為我以前蝦過妳, 所以依家要我比你蝦返. 我的心, 當堂悸了一下. 嗯, 我以往真的太白痴太過份. 但對於妳這樣說, 我亦開心了一陣子. 好吧, 我甘願給妳蝦吧, 就當我用一生的精力和時間, 來補償所有妳為我流過的眼淚與時間吧. 再者, 亦係一個大好機會, 給予我待妳好, 令妳成為世上最幸福快樂的女人吧.
所以妳會否原諒我的過失, 給我一個改過的機會? 不過說真的, 我多麼想每天稱呼我女朋友的是妳, 更多麼想每天打開第一眼看到的亦是妳.妳能給我這樣的機會待妳好嗎?
我堅信, 總有一天, 妳會給我就這個的機會. 而妳亦知道, 我是十分認真的.
上次與妳MSN, 妳說道, 因為我以前蝦過妳, 所以依家要我比你蝦返. 我的心, 當堂悸了一下. 嗯, 我以往真的太白痴太過份. 但對於妳這樣說, 我亦開心了一陣子. 好吧, 我甘願給妳蝦吧, 就當我用一生的精力和時間, 來補償所有妳為我流過的眼淚與時間吧. 再者, 亦係一個大好機會, 給予我待妳好, 令妳成為世上最幸福快樂的女人吧.
所以妳會否原諒我的過失, 給我一個改過的機會? 不過說真的, 我多麼想每天稱呼我女朋友的是妳, 更多麼想每天打開第一眼看到的亦是妳.妳能給我這樣的機會待妳好嗎?
我堅信, 總有一天, 妳會給我就這個的機會. 而妳亦知道, 我是十分認真的.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
A " meaningful " dream .
Wah, I got to record this dream..because it's quite extraordinary from my others..
It was a dark night and I was going to take a Macau ferry back to HK, with my dai kao mo, and one of my biu mui, which is really abnormal, because dai kao mo and I barely talk to each other,,, maybe once a year. By then, we three had a race from the entrance to the ferry, I cut a short cut there, with passing by a small door designated for dogs... I have no idea what's happening again because the occasion had changed. It was a big stage with a black triangular piano on it. I played it, really played it, with Chopin - Fantasie Impromptu, Op. 66 . After I played for a while, my sister stopped me, with blocking the notes behind the piano... so weird, wondering why would she did that haha.
Then I was quite sad, appeared on a street, with myself holding a really tiny little map, playing orienteering. It was so dark dark dark and I can barely read the map. After a while, I ran to a check point and I discovered someone was enlightening me. She wasn't using any torches or something, just appeared in front of me with her body enlightening herself. She was you.
You blocked my way, and told me stop playing that race anymore, and be there with you, which you really mean it by then. Honestly, I wanted to continue the race, but I would even want to stay with you, so I did. I almost cried in front of you, and I am sure you know the reason behind.
We chatted on the sofa, but I forgot those contents. And I gave you my shoulder and sao bay after our deep conversations. You really leaned on me and we was just sitting on the sofa leaning on each other. Calm, and happy, fortunate and peaceful.
After that, my dai kao fu ( yup, dai kao mo's husband, weird ) told me to save money for him, haha, I forgot the reasons behind, but I just knew that my dai kao fu and dai kao mo's soul and characteristics had switched with each other, hahahaha... Then you left me and went to chat with the others.
I entered a room in that house, I was shocked with it, and I thought that was your house, because I saw so many plants inside, full of full of green plants and even on the roof, " green wall " right..?! ( Saw that term in Adelaide Zoo... ) Oh that's not it, there were five pianos inside as well, which included two blacks and three browns. Haha, I really wanted to play with them gar, but then I was called to the kitchen. I entered the kitchen, and all in my sight were full of refrigerators in different shapes... so strange indeed. Then I took out a birthday cake from one of them, and there's your name on it : ) Haha, haha. Then I took it out of the kitchen, and saw you coming from another room. You looked, mature. I mean your outfit and clothing haha. You were chatting while I was waiting, so I looked around the corridor and saw some big shelves, FULL OF MUSIC BOOKS and PUBLICATIONS. " Ng guai duc zi nei sic gum dor music things and songs la ", I spoke that out with real shocked.
Then you saw me and smiled, and I smiled back to you...
- The End. -
Ding... 7:50 AM...
And as I recalled, it's the second time I dreamed of "celebrating your birthday " with you, with a cake.
That's what I dreamed, don't blame me, I couldn't control my dream after all, but quite enjoy gar haha.
Plants, piano, music.
Isn't that meaning something?
Those three things, you like, appeared inside my dream.
.
Four months left.
It was a dark night and I was going to take a Macau ferry back to HK, with my dai kao mo, and one of my biu mui, which is really abnormal, because dai kao mo and I barely talk to each other,,, maybe once a year. By then, we three had a race from the entrance to the ferry, I cut a short cut there, with passing by a small door designated for dogs... I have no idea what's happening again because the occasion had changed. It was a big stage with a black triangular piano on it. I played it, really played it, with Chopin - Fantasie Impromptu, Op. 66 . After I played for a while, my sister stopped me, with blocking the notes behind the piano... so weird, wondering why would she did that haha.
Then I was quite sad, appeared on a street, with myself holding a really tiny little map, playing orienteering. It was so dark dark dark and I can barely read the map. After a while, I ran to a check point and I discovered someone was enlightening me. She wasn't using any torches or something, just appeared in front of me with her body enlightening herself. She was you.
You blocked my way, and told me stop playing that race anymore, and be there with you, which you really mean it by then. Honestly, I wanted to continue the race, but I would even want to stay with you, so I did. I almost cried in front of you, and I am sure you know the reason behind.
We chatted on the sofa, but I forgot those contents. And I gave you my shoulder and sao bay after our deep conversations. You really leaned on me and we was just sitting on the sofa leaning on each other. Calm, and happy, fortunate and peaceful.
After that, my dai kao fu ( yup, dai kao mo's husband, weird ) told me to save money for him, haha, I forgot the reasons behind, but I just knew that my dai kao fu and dai kao mo's soul and characteristics had switched with each other, hahahaha... Then you left me and went to chat with the others.
I entered a room in that house, I was shocked with it, and I thought that was your house, because I saw so many plants inside, full of full of green plants and even on the roof, " green wall " right..?! ( Saw that term in Adelaide Zoo... ) Oh that's not it, there were five pianos inside as well, which included two blacks and three browns. Haha, I really wanted to play with them gar, but then I was called to the kitchen. I entered the kitchen, and all in my sight were full of refrigerators in different shapes... so strange indeed. Then I took out a birthday cake from one of them, and there's your name on it : ) Haha, haha. Then I took it out of the kitchen, and saw you coming from another room. You looked, mature. I mean your outfit and clothing haha. You were chatting while I was waiting, so I looked around the corridor and saw some big shelves, FULL OF MUSIC BOOKS and PUBLICATIONS. " Ng guai duc zi nei sic gum dor music things and songs la ", I spoke that out with real shocked.
Then you saw me and smiled, and I smiled back to you...
- The End. -
Ding... 7:50 AM...
And as I recalled, it's the second time I dreamed of "celebrating your birthday " with you, with a cake.
That's what I dreamed, don't blame me, I couldn't control my dream after all, but quite enjoy gar haha.
Plants, piano, music.
Isn't that meaning something?
Those three things, you like, appeared inside my dream.
.
Four months left.
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