菲, 回想起過往, 我曾經亂叫過妳做老婆, 令妳覺得十分無奈, 真的覺得自己又白痴又幼稚, 完全沒有顧及妳的感受. 回到近期, 我竟然又犯下這個鑄天大錯, 要求妳留下"女朋友"三個字的署名, 又再一次沒有把妳的感受抹掉了. 我知道自己真的太過份, 既自私, 亦完全沒有顧及妳的感受, 以往還把妳罵到一面屁, 真的覺得那時我是否男人來的. 現在的我, 真的十分自責, 十分內疚. 如果當年我不是那樣不思長進, 我看妳根本就不需要流下那麼多的眼淚, 也不用受盡我給妳的委屈. 妳說得對, 妳不提, 不代表妳已經忘記過往發生了什麼事.
上次與妳MSN, 妳說道, 因為我以前蝦過妳, 所以依家要我比你蝦返. 我的心, 當堂悸了一下. 嗯, 我以往真的太白痴太過份. 但對於妳這樣說, 我亦開心了一陣子. 好吧, 我甘願給妳蝦吧, 就當我用一生的精力和時間, 來補償所有妳為我流過的眼淚與時間吧. 再者, 亦係一個大好機會, 給予我待妳好, 令妳成為世上最幸福快樂的女人吧.
所以妳會否原諒我的過失, 給我一個改過的機會? 不過說真的, 我多麼想每天稱呼我女朋友的是妳, 更多麼想每天打開第一眼看到的亦是妳.妳能給我這樣的機會待妳好嗎?
我堅信, 總有一天, 妳會給我就這個的機會. 而妳亦知道, 我是十分認真的.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
A " meaningful " dream .
Wah, I got to record this dream..because it's quite extraordinary from my others..
It was a dark night and I was going to take a Macau ferry back to HK, with my dai kao mo, and one of my biu mui, which is really abnormal, because dai kao mo and I barely talk to each other,,, maybe once a year. By then, we three had a race from the entrance to the ferry, I cut a short cut there, with passing by a small door designated for dogs... I have no idea what's happening again because the occasion had changed. It was a big stage with a black triangular piano on it. I played it, really played it, with Chopin - Fantasie Impromptu, Op. 66 . After I played for a while, my sister stopped me, with blocking the notes behind the piano... so weird, wondering why would she did that haha.
Then I was quite sad, appeared on a street, with myself holding a really tiny little map, playing orienteering. It was so dark dark dark and I can barely read the map. After a while, I ran to a check point and I discovered someone was enlightening me. She wasn't using any torches or something, just appeared in front of me with her body enlightening herself. She was you.
You blocked my way, and told me stop playing that race anymore, and be there with you, which you really mean it by then. Honestly, I wanted to continue the race, but I would even want to stay with you, so I did. I almost cried in front of you, and I am sure you know the reason behind.
We chatted on the sofa, but I forgot those contents. And I gave you my shoulder and sao bay after our deep conversations. You really leaned on me and we was just sitting on the sofa leaning on each other. Calm, and happy, fortunate and peaceful.
After that, my dai kao fu ( yup, dai kao mo's husband, weird ) told me to save money for him, haha, I forgot the reasons behind, but I just knew that my dai kao fu and dai kao mo's soul and characteristics had switched with each other, hahahaha... Then you left me and went to chat with the others.
I entered a room in that house, I was shocked with it, and I thought that was your house, because I saw so many plants inside, full of full of green plants and even on the roof, " green wall " right..?! ( Saw that term in Adelaide Zoo... ) Oh that's not it, there were five pianos inside as well, which included two blacks and three browns. Haha, I really wanted to play with them gar, but then I was called to the kitchen. I entered the kitchen, and all in my sight were full of refrigerators in different shapes... so strange indeed. Then I took out a birthday cake from one of them, and there's your name on it : ) Haha, haha. Then I took it out of the kitchen, and saw you coming from another room. You looked, mature. I mean your outfit and clothing haha. You were chatting while I was waiting, so I looked around the corridor and saw some big shelves, FULL OF MUSIC BOOKS and PUBLICATIONS. " Ng guai duc zi nei sic gum dor music things and songs la ", I spoke that out with real shocked.
Then you saw me and smiled, and I smiled back to you...
- The End. -
Ding... 7:50 AM...
And as I recalled, it's the second time I dreamed of "celebrating your birthday " with you, with a cake.
That's what I dreamed, don't blame me, I couldn't control my dream after all, but quite enjoy gar haha.
Plants, piano, music.
Isn't that meaning something?
Those three things, you like, appeared inside my dream.
.
Four months left.
It was a dark night and I was going to take a Macau ferry back to HK, with my dai kao mo, and one of my biu mui, which is really abnormal, because dai kao mo and I barely talk to each other,,, maybe once a year. By then, we three had a race from the entrance to the ferry, I cut a short cut there, with passing by a small door designated for dogs... I have no idea what's happening again because the occasion had changed. It was a big stage with a black triangular piano on it. I played it, really played it, with Chopin - Fantasie Impromptu, Op. 66 . After I played for a while, my sister stopped me, with blocking the notes behind the piano... so weird, wondering why would she did that haha.
Then I was quite sad, appeared on a street, with myself holding a really tiny little map, playing orienteering. It was so dark dark dark and I can barely read the map. After a while, I ran to a check point and I discovered someone was enlightening me. She wasn't using any torches or something, just appeared in front of me with her body enlightening herself. She was you.
You blocked my way, and told me stop playing that race anymore, and be there with you, which you really mean it by then. Honestly, I wanted to continue the race, but I would even want to stay with you, so I did. I almost cried in front of you, and I am sure you know the reason behind.
We chatted on the sofa, but I forgot those contents. And I gave you my shoulder and sao bay after our deep conversations. You really leaned on me and we was just sitting on the sofa leaning on each other. Calm, and happy, fortunate and peaceful.
After that, my dai kao fu ( yup, dai kao mo's husband, weird ) told me to save money for him, haha, I forgot the reasons behind, but I just knew that my dai kao fu and dai kao mo's soul and characteristics had switched with each other, hahahaha... Then you left me and went to chat with the others.
I entered a room in that house, I was shocked with it, and I thought that was your house, because I saw so many plants inside, full of full of green plants and even on the roof, " green wall " right..?! ( Saw that term in Adelaide Zoo... ) Oh that's not it, there were five pianos inside as well, which included two blacks and three browns. Haha, I really wanted to play with them gar, but then I was called to the kitchen. I entered the kitchen, and all in my sight were full of refrigerators in different shapes... so strange indeed. Then I took out a birthday cake from one of them, and there's your name on it : ) Haha, haha. Then I took it out of the kitchen, and saw you coming from another room. You looked, mature. I mean your outfit and clothing haha. You were chatting while I was waiting, so I looked around the corridor and saw some big shelves, FULL OF MUSIC BOOKS and PUBLICATIONS. " Ng guai duc zi nei sic gum dor music things and songs la ", I spoke that out with real shocked.
Then you saw me and smiled, and I smiled back to you...
- The End. -
Ding... 7:50 AM...
And as I recalled, it's the second time I dreamed of "celebrating your birthday " with you, with a cake.
That's what I dreamed, don't blame me, I couldn't control my dream after all, but quite enjoy gar haha.
Plants, piano, music.
Isn't that meaning something?
Those three things, you like, appeared inside my dream.
.
Four months left.
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